my reflection on writing a blog

I love to journal. It is a release for me. I write without looking back, a stream of consciousness oulet without regard for grammar, style or topoi. I journal deeply personal, in-the-moment reactions, thoughts and emotions. Blogging feels like journaling, but for me it isn't.

When I blog, I consider my audience. I want to write about things that are meaningful to me, then wonder if anyone would really care. I write, then wonder if I have shared too much. I consider topoi and style and everything else that goes with more formal writing. I have worried that my school district would somehow read this blog and censure me for writing about them.

I want blogging to mirror my journal experience, but sharing my deepest feelings this way doesn't feel appropriate. I imagine that good bloggers have to possess a certain emotional exhibitionism that I just don't have.